I moved to the States with the willingness to settle down at one of its state.

A friend working with me asked: are you going back?

I frowned, and wondered as well.

I probably need a place to be back.

I said "it's an option", even though I don't know what the option is.

 

Life is full of ambivalence, as it always does.

Finding a good place to live, buying loads of furniture, planting living plants, pretending I have a home.

It doesn't help me to settle down.

When you are by yourself, you just want to move on

To a place of nowhere

 

This time is an exception, may or may not be good.

We, not myself, are moving on together, eight of us.

 

There is something.

When I'm complaining it doesn't happen, it happens.

When I try to feel and touch it, it's gone.

No one can tell true or false, only white sand recorded it.

It took us hours and hours driving in snow storm to get there.

We took photos with state-of-art cameras.

We try to catch every impressive scenarios.

But, it's never enough. The canyon is still there.

In the world of its own

Winter in canyon is terribly cold.

I appreciate for the sunshine.

It bordered me in warm and happiness.

People have to be isolated by the guardrail.

To see, to feel, but never be with it.

Isn't it a good place to die?

We are all together smiling.

Everybody is on the photo, except the Grand Canyon.

 

Is there anywhere else more luxurious than Las Vegas?

Anything can be artificial, even the sky.

The core of Vegas. I simply enjoyed it.

When I won $60 with 35 cents, I know something must be paid back.

The tradeoff with Satan.

I still enjoyed it.

Surprisingly, my birthday is on it.

I couldn't remember anything from San Francisco

Other than the fireworks and count-down for the 2009 new year.

I vowed for a good job. It said to be efficacious.

日子过得真快，过年了，真好。这里没有什么过年的气氛，可我心里还是像小孩儿一样高兴，总觉得过年就会有很多好的事情发生，更有许多希望。不知道这是不是潜意识里的喜新厌旧，旧的一年不好的统统都抛掉，新的一年是张白纸可以随意图画，最重要的一点，它是新的。

走亲戚看朋友逛庙会的活动在这儿就被无情的取缔了，就剩下吃年夜饭看春节晚会了。今年的年夜饭实际是大年二九吃的，可算是兴师动众，飞沙走石，草木含悲，风云变色，被隔壁阿黑敲墙无数次。我用残存的最后理智寻思着被报警后如何解释。一直折腾到小5点，一群人能量耗尽，瞬间横尸在我房间里，放眼望去床上地上都是人，外加一片杯盘狼藉。我却因为肠子笑抽筋儿了而导致失眠20分钟09秒。6点多钟就醒了，看了大年30er早上的日出，想不出看一年最后一天的日出有啥特别的历史意义。之后，蓄谋继续昏睡未果，发现有3名同学人间蒸发，估摸着是梦游回家了。收拾停当，打完该死的电话（明明知道这个时间电话不好打，还非要在这会儿打，图的就是个心意），开始在阳光明媚的大早上起来，看春晚。想想每年春晚都免不了被媒体大众口诛笔伐，但这份鸡肋仿佛没有要收场的意思。到如今，看春晚反而成了新鲜奢侈事儿，我这也是5年来第一次正点儿看春晚，还只看了一小半。也就从这儿还能有点儿过年气氛。

星期天一整天，都在昏昏沉沉中度过，该去做实验的没去，该去加班的也没加，该去写论文的也没写。所谓过年，不就是找个理由，无拘无束的折腾一下么。

年就这么过完了。心里略微有点儿空落落的。